D: So sorry, it was saved in my draft! Oh and Ali Van, I think we've been peer reviewers before right? I went through and made sure I capitalized all my "i"s for you. Thanks for that tip. :)
I'm so confused!
I don't know how to approach my writing. Like, my thought process is so scattered and utterly disorganized that i sometimes wonder how i'm supposed to make sense about it. The essay over A Barred Owl and The History Teacher made my head spin because there was so much that I notice but I couldn't put it all into words, it was all there just not....there. (That doesn't make sense does it?) When we went through it I kept going "Yeah! I noticed that!" followed by "OMG how did i miss that?!" or "Why didn't I think of that!" or
"I'm a complete dumbsuck for not mentioning that.". Its like, I have good ideas, but the way I approach it (anxiety maybe?) and the way I execute my work seems to be lacking. Something about making the words come together confuses me, i notice that my writing lacks a certain.....spot on...its almost...vague-like.
Sometimes, when I'm writing these essays, I feel like I'm dying, shriveling up on the inside because I have so much to say and I can't put it out into words. Which is bad because I'm the type of writer where if I can feel a piece of work, it flows through me onto the paper yet I can't connect with anything we've read all year. Not even one bit.
Anyways, I liked that we went over Salesmen. Father vs. Son, Linda being the not-so-doormat character, Willy is a prostitute. Pretty awesome, I feel almost proud that my Salesmen book is all marked up properly and its not even filler annotations, y'know, the type where you just underline and repeat what you just said three pages ago, my annotations were AP worthy. Or, atleast I'd like to believe that. I started a little bit on Ceremony by Silko and I can't wrap my head around it. The story's timeline is different, jumping from place to place, there aren't any chapters and the narrator sounds like he needs to grow a pair and deal with his problems (I'm only on page 40, he's just puking everywhere.)
Just treading through Ceremony now and trying to learn the best I can. Lit is still my favorite class and AP is supposed to be challenging, hopefully I can grow from this.
I COMPLETELY agree about writing essays! There are always so many things I want to say or smack my self because I missed it. One thing that helps me is sorting out what is actually important and what is something that I noticed but doesn't actualy make my essay better by including. Having the most words or thoughts doesn't make it the best, it's how well you answer the question and support your point. I also love anotating! While I did repeat anotations it was because it's showing certain motifs that are acutally important. Anotation ceremony is another story. Just making sure I understand what is going on takes so much brain power that I have to fight with myself to delve into the depths that await me.
ReplyDeleteYes the essays are really tough! Don't be too hard on yourself and don't stress too much, just take it a step at a time and the writing will come to you naturally. I have the same issue when it comes to organizing my thoughts and trying to figure out what I'm trying to say. Perhaps making an outline before you write will help you with this issue, at least that's what I do when I get stuck. I agree, Silko's Ceremony is a tough read, I had no idea what was going on until the end of the book. It was so hard to focus on who was speaking and what time period they were in ( past or present). I like the poetry though, it made it more enjoyable and symbolic to read.
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